4th Entry

Asssalammualaikum ...........

Been a while since i've posted the last post...well .. things havent been good at all .. tried to not to be negative but it just damn imposibble ... wherever i am ...it does'nt matter if it's at home ... at work .. or my personal ... its all got screwed up and F***ed up ... im so hating this .. what a GREAT way to end 2010 ... but then again ... i still surviving .. at least i thought i am ...

I used to say LIFE IS SHORT MAKE IT SWEET to all my friends that's feeling down .... but in my this call short life .. so far i have it's full of BS ... i just could'nt make it work ... especially on relationship stuff ... after alot of sacrifice have been done ... somehow in the middle of the way ... BREAKUP will happen ... and this time it have gotten from BAD to WORST ... i just screw it up somehow...

Just to know that u have given up every single thing just cos he does'nt like it ... i gave up my friends .... i gave up my passion ... jus cos i dont want to hurt his feelings .. but in the end .. what did i get ... NOTHING .... just more disappointment .... and the best thing ever is the BREAKUP word n shit n stuff ... arghh i feel so damn crap ... but the good thing is i gotta spend more times with my pals .... dats good enough for me ... they have always been there for me .... and at least i don feel alone nmore ...

Maybe its true im not the marry-ing type ... maybe im just a good friend type ... suddenly i remember my old quote that i used from primary to high school ... BOYS / GUYS THEY MAKE GOOD FRIEND BUT NOT IN RELATIONSHIP ... thuhuhu ... looks like im gonna be the only 1 in this family that its not gonna get married ever .... i'll be alone as always ... but hey .. at least i still have friends ... i'll survive as always ... always have and always do ... thuhuhu ...

But yet again i feel so DOWN n CRAPO....

Later ......

-aDi-

3rd Entry

heyya

been a long time since i wrote...now its 12.58am and im still not sleeping yet even i have took the medication..hmmmm.....yup not well...got 2 days of MC...cos im really really sick...i even cant barely walk just now at the office...

well, ive got into a a little fight ( or should i say miscommunication ) with my BF....he knows that its hard for me to on9 using this laptop ( my baby is having some connections issues ) ... but i finally manage to get on9....he asked me to go sleep n rest..haizzz....i mean come on...it will be better if i didnt put any effort just to get my baby connected ... i feel so damn disappointed...

i know he cares but he sure have a weird way showing it ... damn .... im off.....dats all for now

-aDi-

2nd Entry

wazzuppp???it's been long since the 1st entry....i hate my job more then ever for the 1st time today..and i was being reminded by MR BIG not to do that ""silly and small" mistake again...crappy...i don't want to elaborate further since its really not a big deal...but when a certain someone make it becomes personal....it so damn much...i really felt like i wanna kill all of them ... if you don't want for me to stay longer there .. please do and come to see me personally...and i will RESIGN .. or MIA for good ... you don't have to go for all the trouble just to find my mistake and make it personal and tell MR BIG...and the same old same old process will repeat itself again. aren't you're so sick and tired of it....

but for what it worth, starting from 25/06/2010 - 30/06/2010....it will be a long HOLIDAY for me... i am so glad that i don't have too see all the STUPID PRICKS ... hahhaahahhaha.... and it will be depends on my mood if after my AL i wanted to come in or not anymore....so go to HELL with all of you ..... muahahhahahaha ( my devil's laugh )

that would be all for now

-sad@tired@die@adi -

1st entry

the time now is 0404 in the morning .i dont know why its hard for me to take some rest and sleep.the reason why i created this blog, its just to express my thought and anything thats got to do with my life and my current situation.

there is a lot of things that it just not right that happens to me for quiet some time. dont really know when its gonna end. i just felt like im loosing it. maybe im just too tired. i started to wonder ... wut the hell am i doing here?? everything its a mess. i just dont know anymore. it feels like im sinking each day no matter how hard i tried to improve...it's just not enough..

i felt so demotivated...i lost hope...and sure as hell....i couldnt take this anymore....really so sick and tired of everything

till next time ... dont know what to say anymore

-sad/tired/die@adi-